Count down begins.....


I'm falling short of words to express how I'm feeling....... All emotions are forcing themselves on me as cycles.... I'm happy,nervous, proud, fidgety, sad, morose, elated one after the other. Probably I'm leaving my comfort zone.... the personal bubble is expanding.... I've never been far from my family albeit for treks.. The longest I've been far from my parents was during my interviews at the SSB's say max of 7days.... I know it would be difficult for my parents, especially my younger brother Bharath..... who simply can't live without me. I'm his proverbial "Everything".
Now I sit in my cube, thinking what lies in store for me.... now I have an eerie feeling.... Fear is not the right word.... I'm simply unable to speculate things that would happen there, for all you guys know I'm a lazy bum, The small, ever negative side of me speaks: Can I wake myself at 4.00 AM? Can I take the rigorous training effortlessly? Can I withstand those punishments? Can I?... Can I?... Can I?... the questions galore.
The bigger, ever positive side speaks, the words that come out of me pump me up, this is what I do to myself whenever my thoughts wander, I'm amazed with the strength of my mind, I know before I can win, I should not lose... I'm not for the monotonous software field, my techno-brain can do more than this, I'm constantly motivating myself to augument my preparation for the training.... A ship is all safe in the harbour, but thats not what the ship is meant to do..... At the same time confidence is a fragile thing.. should never let it break... I tell myself don't think like a loser about what you will go through, think like a winner about where you are going to. For all I see this is a mind game.... After I finish training it should be like a scenario where I should really lack the words to compliment myself.....

This reminds me of what Arnold Schwarzenegger told "The mind is the limit. As long as the mind can envision the fact that you can do something, you can do it, as long as you really believe 100%"

To be prepared is half victory, after all I don't want to be considered the best of the best... I want to be considered the only ones who do what they want to do....

I've changed the comments section from enetation to haloscan..... think its fine.

BTW, thanks to all you guys who've put up great words, laced with encouragement, all good-will.... What can a man ask more for....?